I constantly struggle to maintain a healthy balance between my home and work life. My mental and physical energies lean towards the work side 95% of the time... We're on "Winter break" this week (a perk of living in the North) and I'm struggling to relax. I have a hard time slowing down. My mental to-do list is never ending and I often feel guilty for "resting." So I'm re-evaluating, I guess. I'm trying to learn what it means to "rest." This post is really me processing my thoughts; bear with me and feel free to offer any advice you may have.
When I was in high school, I assumed that I was busy because I chose to be involved in so many different things - church youth events, vocal ensemble, piano lessons, school plays, etc. During my years at Ouachita, I was still busy - double major, marching band, dating Adam, assisting in youth ministry, etc. Then we experienced our first year of marriage which doubled as my first year of teaching, so I was busy yet again. And now we've moved to "the North," Adam's in grad school, I'm teaching, and I am STILL busy.
I am beginning to think that business is a choice and I don't want it anymore. I want to enjoy my twenties; I want to enjoy my husband; I want to enjoy my life without feeling like I'm drowning in it. Yes, my job requires A LOT of me - ask any teacher you know. But let's be real - everyone's job requires a lot of them. My nurse friend works 12-hour night shifts, three or four nights in a row. My stay-at-home mom friend is on-call 24 hours a day for their one year old (oh, and she's growing baby #2 as a side job). Another friend has a chronic illness that consistently drains her emotional, physical, and mental energies. Life requires A LOT.
But my question is: Does life require "busy"?
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