A Small Thing in His Eyes

"So what are you guys doing?"

It's a question you get used to, but one that you come to dread. We heard it last Summer when Adam was finishing at Gordon-Conwell. Then, when we decided to stay in MA "for a year" the question resurfaced this Spring. And what do you say when your life is completely up in the air? Because the real answer is "I have no clue," but that doesn't seem to suffice. People expect you to have a place to live, to make money, to support your child. You know... the basics.

We'd been answering that Adam had applied to jobs in a few places and we were waiting for something to work out. Waiting. Even typing the word makes me cringe a little. "Waiting is an activity," my Spiritual Director said often during this time. "Well... Ok... But I'm still waiting," I thought. In March, I told Covenant Christian Academy that I wouldn't be returning. I told our Head of School and my students, "Adam's waiting to hear back from a few jobs and I expect we'll move this Summer." By mid-June, we had one job left... A really cool opportunity in Virginia. "This is the one," I thought. Or at least, "It's the last one, so it has to come through." [I imagine God smiled knowingly.]

But Adam didn't get the job in VA. Over four days, we learned three things: 1) No job in VA. 2) A different life change was coming (that I'll explain in a separate post). 3) Our lease wasn't expiring in September, it was expiring that Friday. "Umm... God, what are you doing?" In one sense, I'm panicking. In another sense, I'm completely at peace. God has to be up to SOMETHING. [Maybe she's finally getting it.]

One week later, Adam gets a phone call. "We'd like you to do a part-time curacy at CTR." (CTR is our current church and a curacy is a "baby priesthood" where a new priest trains and serves under a more experienced priest--if you've talked to Adam about it, this is what he really wanted next.) We were floored. The idea of a curacy at CTR didn't exist. It wasn't even possible the week before. I can't even explain why it became possible except to say that God worked a miracle. So we're staying in MA for awhile! Adam will work at CTR in this expanded role (and part-time at Christian Book Distributors, where, surprise, he also got a raise). With these changes, my salary from last year is covered and I'll stay home full-time with Joseph. Ya'll. God showed up and showed out. We are incredibly thankful.

It's a little disappointing we're not moving. We were hoping to be closer to family, in a more affordable area, etc. But God has made this path so incredibly clear. So, we are rejoicing in His provision and excited to see how He will continue to work!

Adam sent me this prayer from 2 Samuel yesterday:

Who am I, O Lord God, and what is my house, that you have brought me this far? And yet this was a small thing in your eyes O Lord God. What more can we say to you? For you know your servant, O Lord God.

"Yet this was a small thing in your eyes..." God IS good. Not in the sense of "He's a good person" or "He does good things," but in His very being. His very essence IS good. And as Goodness, he provides. May each of us learn to live in light of His faithfulness, His goodness, His plan.