Tuesday, December 27, 2011

Tuesday Thanksgivings

I am blessed beyond words. I wanted to take a few moments to share some of the things I'm especially thankful for this evening...

1) Forgiveness, both from my heavenly Father and the loved ones around me.
2) The Jackson house. My parents have purchased a new house and will be moving within the next couple of weeks. Although this brings a lot of changes, I am excited for them and pray that God continues to offer His blessing.
3) Christmas, celebrating the birth of Christ.
4) The Gosnells. My future in-laws treat me just like I am their own daughter and I am so blessed. I love them very much and will be honored to officially become a part of their family very soon!
5) Sleep. I have come to understand that sleeping easily and well is a gift.
6) Skype dates with Rachel Schelb. LOVE them :)
7) Christmas break. I love spending extra time with Adam and not feeling rushed or pressured to be anywhere.
8) Teacher clothes! Although student teaching is somewhat daunting at the moment, I must admit that I am looking forward to a different wardrobe and feeling more "professional."
9) Pinterest. Let's be honest, I'm planning most of my wedding via Pinterest pictures and ideas.
10) Finally, I am thankful that in exactly 200 days, I will stand beside my best friend in the whole world and say "I do." I can't wait!!!

Sunday, December 18, 2011

The Power of Prayer Part 2

Adam and I are on a break from school - FINALLY :) We are spending this first week with my family in Memphis. So this morning, I went with my Dad to Evangel Church where Larry Ray is pastor. Little did I know after my earlier blog post that the sermon would be on prayer! I would like to share a couple of sections of my notes from this sermon.

Larry said that if our prayer life is to be more effective, we must understand 3 things:
   1) honesty; understand that we don't have to be phony before the throne. Tell God how you feel, even if those feelings aren't "holy" or "right" at the time.
   2) prayer is a learned skill; it is NOT easy to pray. It takes time to learn effective prayer. That being said, God still listens to us as we're learning. Thankfully!
   3) effective prayers are Biblical; learn what, how, when to pray from the Bible.

Some of Larry's practical tips for prayer:
   *Learn to pray out of a devotional time... Pray what you learn from God's word. Further, pray God's word.
   *As a starting place for praying the scriptures, pray the Psalms and the first chapter of Paul's epistles.
   *Pray for others whatever you're praying for yourself.
   *During prayer, take 10 seconds to be quiet.
   *Don't underestimate the power of short prayers.
"We don't pray because we make it too hard."

Wednesday, December 14, 2011

The Power of Prayer

A few moments ago, a friend posted a prayer request on Twitter. The request was for one of their friends, whom I don't even know. I took a moment and prayed for a couple that I know very little about and have no relationship with. They are probably thousands of miles away from me and yet God may use my prayer to change their lives. How incredible!

I was waiting for Adam the other day and he was running late. I was becoming frustrated, so I stopped to pray for him. I was still frustrated, but I didn't fuss or overreact when he arrived. He apologized and we were able to laugh and move on. I wish I could say that I've made a habit of this with any situation where I might get frustrated, but that would just be untrue. I'm working on it :)

When I was in middle school, Rachel Schelb (she was a New then) encouraged me to begin a prayer journal. She said that I should talk to God like a real person and that I should tell him how I was feeling, even if I was feeling angry or bitter. Now I'm in college and I still use a prayer journal. From asking wisdom about where I should attend college to praying for wisdom as I graduate in May and from praying for "whoever my future husband will be" to praying for Adam, my prayers have changed in many ways. But I've learned to talk to God more and I've learned that I can be myself with Him. He knows me better than anyone else.

I could go on and on about the power of prayer and how good God is. I just wanted to give a couple of quick reminders about how prayer is amazing and how it sometimes works in unexpected ways.

Saturday, December 3, 2011

Facebook Sabbtical

So it's not technically a sabbatical because I'm not being paid... But I have decided to give someone else my Facebook password so that I have no access to it for a short period of time. As of now, I plan to reactivate it sometime around Spring break.

I've been thinking about this for a little while now. There are a couple of reasons... 1) I only check Facebook because it's there, not because it particularly interests me. Don't get me wrong; I love hearing from people and catching up with old friends, but there are other ways for people to contact me (such as this blog, e-mail, phone, etc). 2) I've allowed Facebook to be something that makes me feel better or worse about myself based on how I compare to others. It's a direct link to the activities, fashion, emotions of others and if I don't think I'm measuring up, I sometimes become insecure or I seek ways to change myself. On the other hand, it sometimes makes me feel better about myself because I begin to think that parts of my life are better than someone else's. These feelings and the way I've let it control me are wrong and unhealthy. 3) Finals are coming up. One less distraction in my life will be greatly beneficial.

Will I miss it? Maybe. Will I want to change my mind in January? Maybe. But I feel like this is a good choice and I intend to stick it out regardless of the outcome. Hopefully I will learn something about myself or about how I live my life. I plan to continue my blog, so you can keep up with me here or feel free to text/call/email me!

Tuesday, November 29, 2011

Tuesday Thanksgivings

I had decided on today's blog topic a few days ago... Little did I know that I would need the attitude adjustment today! It hasn't been a bad day. It's actually been a very good day! But during the past couple of hours, I have found myself to be hostile and anxious. I hope that writing out a few things that I'm thankful for will help adjust my attitude...

* My fiance' ...

* Computers ...

* Heating / Air-conditioning ...

* Ouachita ...

* Journaling ...

* Final Exam study guides ...

* Laughter with my Family ...

* theknot.com ...

* Work ...

* Christmas break ...

What are you thankful for?

Sunday, November 27, 2011

The Shack


I recently finished reading The Shack by Wm. Paul Young. Now I realize that many people might want to stop reading this blog post immediately after my first sentence.  But I encourage you to hear me out. I hope to be fair and yet honest about what I have read and experienced. This is not intended be a fleshed-out argument either in support or in rebuttal to The Shack, but it is simply a summary of my thoughts.

Why did I choose to read The Shack? … I mentor a 7th grader from our youth group at church. She mentioned that she was reading the book and also something that she had learned from it. I didn’t have much of a response because I knew very little about the book, so I decided that I should read it for myself.

What did I like about The Shack? … First of all, this book made me think. I thought about my present beliefs about God and His character. I considered their truth or falsehood. And in many cases, this process encouraged me to fall more in love with our God.
For example, at one point in the book, the main character, Mack, is observing the three persons who represent the personhood of God. He speaks of their incredible love for one another and their overwhelming desire to serve one another. I was in awe as I remembered the incredible love God has for all people – even me! I also examined my own life and realized how poorly I love people – even those closest to me. It’s a convicting thought.
Also, as you realize the whole of the story line, you begin to recognize how God had everything planned from the very beginning. He knew exactly what would happen; He allowed Mack to suffer a terrible experience and then consequently brought him into a better and deeper understanding of who God is. The Shack reminds us that we are not exempt from suffering (we are rather pre-disposed to it), but that He always has a bigger purpose – one that we most often do not understand until we are at the end of those experiences.

What did I dislike about The Shack? … There are general things about the book that make me uncomfortable. For instance, the Father is represented in the book by “Papa,” an African-American woman. I am not trying to discriminate in any way, but the Bible is clear that we worship the God of the Universe, not the goddess. In addition, Mack goes to “the shack” because a note has been left in his mailbox, signed by “Papa.” I am not saying that God is incapable of leaving notes for people in their mailbox, but the concept does make me uncomfortable.
As a more important point, the book emphasizes some ideas that I simply do not find to be true in scripture. One thing Papa says is that hierarchy, or the concept of authority, is a direct result of sin and was not ordained by God.  However, in the scriptures, I see many examples of God-ordained authority. In Genesis 1:28, God ordains that man will be in dominion over the animals. In Ephesians, God ordains that husbands should be the heads of their wives and that parents will be in authority over their children. Jesus, himself, states clearly that He can only do on earth the things that the Father tells Him to do (John 5:19)!
Would I recommend The Shack? … Yes and no. I would not recommend The Shack to young, weak, or insecure Christians. This is not a book for those still trying to grasp who God is and how/why God has saved them. However, for stronger Christians who are interested (or Christians mentoring those who are interested), I see nothing wrong with reading the book and I feel that you can learn from it. If you fall in this category, I encourage you to read with an open but active mind. By “open but active,” I mean that you should not judge something you haven’t read yet, but when reading, you must examine the ideas and truths posed. Don’t be judgmental, but don’t be naïve either.

Sunday, November 13, 2011

Ecclesiastes 3:18

I'm sure most people have heard at least a little about the Joe Paterno controversy and all the terrible things surrounding it... It terrifies me to realize that we live in a culture where some people are more concerned about their football team than the abuse (and that puts it lightly) of a child. Sometimes I wonder if God regrets his promise to Noah. Destroying the whole human race would look pretty tempting if I were in His place... (Good thing I'm not!)

But as I've judged Paterno and others involved, I have to remember my own sin. God doesn't see Paterno's any differently than He sees mine... Romans 6:23 says "For the wages of sin is death." It doesn't specify the severity of sin. The wages for any sin is death. Period.

Ecclesiastes 3:18 says "As for men, God tests them so that they may see that they are like the animals." The writer seems to be venting in this passage. He goes on to say that we have no advantage over the animals and everything is meaningless. Genesis tells us that we have a significant advantage over the animals (Genesis 1:28)! So we have to read the passage in context. Nevertheless, this verse sparked my thought. Before Christ, in our sinful state, we act no differently from the animals. We act based on what feels good or what everyone else is doing... Sounds pretty animalistic.

My point is not to say that we are animals or to create more guilt over our sin. Because the joy and blessing of it all is that God does a work in our hearts. He calls His children and doesn't leave us in the pit of our sin. He breaks the chains that bind us and covers us with His blood. He has paid for our wages! Is Joe Paterno sinful? Absolutely. Am I sinful? Absolutely. Did God forgive me when I repented? Yes. Will God forgive Paterno if he repents? Yes. Don't be too quick to judge others. Yes, what happened was wrong and terrible and disgusting. But my sin was also wrong and terrible and disgusting... And so I take this opportunity to rejoice in what Christ did for me and to praise Him for His glorious grace!

"Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old has passed away; behold, the new has come." 2 Corinthians 5:17